And I Have

I mentioned that a lovely couple in Backnang requested a song that they'd come to know from a CD of mine (The Beautiful and Cruel) they had bought on our previous visit. I have to admit to being proud of some of the lines.

Here are the lyrics:


And I have...

And I have been made abject by the beautiful and cruel

And I have been struck down by love and I've been made a fool

And I have felt the knife plunged in then twisted when removed

And I have been made vulnerable by ego and by need

But smiled with wry amusement as I watched her watch me bleed

As the blood seeped through my fingers confounding my belief

And I have...

And I have seen the same eyes fill with tears at my name

Then render me transparent as I tried to stake my claim

And I have been dismissed with scorn and I have done the same

And I have been made welcome in the sanctum of a queen

Who told me of her ecstasy when I was in her dream

And I have been kissed tenderly, misconstruing what It means

And I have...

And I have heard the siren call that I could not resist

Without a mast or ropes to hand and longing for that kiss

But found no lips awaiting, but only cupid's fist

And have stared into the face of one I could not read

Adaptive and chameleon in speaking and in deed

And I have turned and walked away with insufficient speed

And I know that I've been lied to and I've known it for itself

Embracing that dissembling although I never fell

And I have pondered honesty and trickery as well

And I've feared for my safety in the places I have been

And though I should have turned and run, my wanderlust was keen

And I have gone there willingly and I'm glad for what I've seen

And I have...

And I've sought for greater wisdom but I have had my fill

And I have found a harvest of grist unto my quill

And I've mused on the battle between the intellect and will

And I have been made abject by the beautiful and cruel

And I have been struck down by love and I've been made a fool

And I have felt the knife plunged in then twisted when removed

And I have...